For many years I've gotten a thrill out of the mystery of existence.
This has nothing to do with what exists. It's all about the brute fact that something exists. Now, that something might well be infinite.
For sure it's huge -- countless billions of light years huge. And it's old -- at least 13.8 billion years old and possibly infinitely old.
All that is irrelevant when talking about the mystery of existence.
What blows my mind with marvelous regularity is the chill-up-the-spine realization that all this, no matter what it consists of -- is equally present at the tips of my fingers typing these words and a galaxy at the farthest reaches of the universe.
There's no why at question here.
Why's have to do with stuff that exists. Why won't my car start? The answer is found in a chain of causes and effects.
But existence must always have existed. At least, this is the inescapable conclusion of a human consciousness. Maybe a different form of consciousness would see things differently.
We humans have no acquaintance with existence. All we understand are things that exist. (Arguably, existence doesn't actually exist, but it makes sense to speak as if it does.)
Each of those things comes and goes. Even the universe, which arose in a big bang, according to modern science, and may depart at some point, according to some theories.
However, existence stands apart from comings and goings.
If existence hadn't always existed, nothing could have arisen within existence. Positing a god doesn't help, since an eternal god is just another way of saying eternal existence. Anyway, there's no proof of any god, while there's plenty of evidence for existence.
Whenever I write about this, it doesn't take long for me to feel like words are a very poor substitute for the feeling that leads me to search for those words.
Which basically can be expressed as simply Wow. Though those three letters -- W...o...w -- don't capture the feeling either.
Here's some of the blog posts I've written that attempt to describe that Wow in a much greater number of words.
Grappling with the fact that existence has always existed
Wow. Existence has always existed.
Existence exists. Amazing!
"Existence exists" -- the cosmic lock to which humans have no key
Existence is the only unchanging thing. If it exists.
Robert Kuhn's nine levels of nothing: mind-blowing
The beauty of boundless existence
Boundless existence--the backdrop to life's meaning