Yesterday Jay left a comment that contained a question deserving a response.
I cannot believe that you have been a follower of RSSB and written a book called 'life is fair' for RS, yet you have gone anti-RS. Whats that all about. I have been initiated for just under s decade by Babaji and okay its hard but what is easy.
You think that you are too clever. Don't forget, you are an embassador of babaji and you will come back one the path. Is just a matter of time.
Even with the typos, and the lack of a question mark after "Whats that all about," I get Jay's message.
He's a true believer of the religious organization I belonged to for some thirty-five years, Radha Soami Satsang Beas (RSSB), and can't understand how I could have wandered off this spiritual path.
But that was then. Here's what I think about the question now. And really, that's my point.
Then isn't now. Change is what's happening. Indeed, there's good reason to say that change is the only thing that's happening.
Existence exists, probably forever. (It's hard to picture existence no longer existing; where would it go?) But everything within existence, so far as is known, is constantly changing. This fits with a basic premise of the RSSB philosophy: that vibrational energy permeates the cosmos.
I agree. As does modern physics. Change, though, doesn't require a cosmic perspective to be noticed. It's part and parcel of everyday life.
So I say to Jay: how can you believe that someone, me, for example, can assiduously meditate every day for thirty-five years; have all kinds of experiences associated with an immersion in a mystical-spiritual organization; come to know some of the leaders of the organization quite well, including the head guru himself; contribute countless hours of volunteer service to the group; study its teachings in great detail and even contribute to them via several books; and not change in some significant ways?
From my high school days on (I'm 59 now), I've had a passionate desire to understand what It is All About. I still do. The desire just has taken on different forms, as my understanding has changed (hopefully, grown).
I realize how religious true believers think, because I used to be one.
They have an illogical notion that all change leading up to someone embracing their particular form of belief is positive and good, while all subsequent change leading away from that embrace is negative and bad.
For example, someone is a Buddhist. He or she then converts to Christianity. Christians see this change as wonderful. Buddhists likely will think, "Off the path…"
Thus spiritual progress or retrogression depends on one's perspective. There aren't any universal mile markers, because each religion has its own definition of what the "path" consists of. So Jay can consider that I'm left the spiritual path, while I can feel that I'm more firmly on it.
"It" isn't like I-5, the freeway that runs close by my home, connecting Mexico and Canada plus the states in between. There's no map to ultimate reality, no obvious on-ramps, no vehicles that everyone agrees can get you somewhere – largely because there's no evident "where" to point toward.
All each of us can do is wander along the best we know how. That's what I'm doing. That's what Jay is doing. That's what everybody on Earth is doing.
Wandering. Changing. Seeking.
When somebody seems to be heading the same way we are, we say "You're so right!" And we might also be able to supply some reasonable reasons for the correctness of our traveling, in contrast to those deluded fools who are meandering off in a different direction.
We can't be sure, though. It's impossible to know where ultimate truth lies. All each of us can do is follow our instincts, intuition, and experience the best we can.
So there's my answer to "What's that all about?" I'm continuing to move, to grow, to change. As are we all.