I'm churchless. I don't belong to any organized religion. But actually I'm still religious. In a marvelously disorganized sense.
Meaning, I believe in a religion of one -- my own. It's all about me, myself, and I. There are no other members of my religion than moi.
And I seek no other members. In fact, it would be impossible for anyone else than me to believe in my religion, because not even I do.
Likely you're confused about what I just said. Join the club. I am also. Believe me, I find it difficult to believe that I believe what I believe. Yet... I do.
Let's start with something you probably will believe.
I'm stranger than I appear from the outside. Inside my head, some weird shit happens. I try to look fairly normal from the outside, because if people were aware of the often-bizarre thoughts and feelings I've got going on inside, they'd think this guy is fucking crazy.
But you know what? I'm pretty damn sure you are the same. Along with everybody else in the world.
We all believe in some freakily strange stuff that, if these mental emanations were made transparent to others, would cause reactions of "How could anyone think or feel that way?"
So I'm fine with irrational, unproven, far-out, evidence-free belief systems. They just need to be restricted to the confines of a single human brain. Mine. Yours.
No proselytizing. No absolutism. No conviction of I'm right and you're wrong. Rather: this is how I see things... uniquely, privately, personally.
The beauty of being your own crazy unbelievable religion is that you can be even crazier and more unbelievable than any organized religion. Since your religion is utterly disorganized, incomprehensible even to yourself, you don't have to wory about little details like...
Making some sort of sense.
Putting beliefs in words.
Compiling a coherent theology.
Remaining within cultural bounds.
Adhering to moral strictures.
Go wild! Let loose!
After all, no one other than you will know what bizarre weird unbelievable stuff you believe in -- unless you want them to know.
I recommend keeping the farther reaches of your far-out Religion of One to yourself.
After all, you have no reason to believe in your own craziness. So anyone else is going to be even more mystified by what transpires in the most mysterious regions of your psyche.
Bottom line: becoming churchless doesn't entail discarding strange beliefs. It just means that now your strangeness is uniquely your own, not borrowed from an organized religion.